Thoughts on Life, Death, and Overcoming Fear

I've been pondering a topic that's universally relevant yet rarely discussed - death and the anxieties it evokes. As I delve deeper into understanding it, I feel compelled to share my thoughts and invite your perspectives.

Some of you might know of my deep-seated fear of death. I've grappled with it for a while, seeking ways to lessen its hold on me. This fear transcends the physical aspects of dying, like illness. It's a more profound existential concern.

For a while now, I've been contemplating two main approaches to comprehending death: through a religious lens and a secular one. As a Muslim, I've dedicated significant effort to understanding the purpose of life and death within the Islamic framework, and I find comfort and coherence in its teachings.

However, I've also explored death from a purely secular perspective, but haven't yet unearthed anything particularly groundbreaking.

This has led me to wonder if my fear stems from a fear of missing out (FOMO) – the idea that the universe will continue to thrive long after I'm gone, and I won't be a part of it. To address this, I considered the possibility that as I age, and perhaps life's novelty wanes (though thankfully, that hasn't been the case so far!), my attachment to this FOMO might lessen. Perhaps, it could eventually lead to indifference towards death, or even a preference for it as life loses its luster.

Is this just a theoretical notion, or could it hold practical truth? The image I've attached (an old woman, presumably content) gives me a glimmer of hope that such acceptance might be attainable.

I'd be grateful for your thoughts and any insights you're willing to share on this topic.

A LookBack at Year 2023

As the fresh breeze of 2024 begins to unfold its chapters, I find myself pausing to reflect on the whirlwind that was 2023. It was a year that brought with it a multitude of experiences, emotions, and milestones. Here's a look back at some of the highlights that made 2023 a year to remember.

A Year in Books

My journey through the pages continued unabated as I devoured 126 books. This is the highest number of books I have ever finished in a single calendar year. The majority were audiobooks, perfect companions during my travels and downtime, but I also treasured the tactile feel of paperbacks and the convenience of Kindle reads. Each book was a new adventure, a new learning experience, and a new perspective gained. I started the year with a target of 60 books but crossed that mark halfway in the year and hence targeted for 100 books, which also I crossed within the first 10 months. My 2024 target will be again 60 books.

On the Road

Speaking of adventures, 2023 saw me embarking on an epic 8-day solo road trip across the USA, covering 5700 miles of diverse landscapes and stories. I covered Shoshone Falls, Yellowstone National Park, Grand Teton, Arches National Park, Zion National Park, Bryce Canyon amongst others in my Tesla. This grand expedition, along with several shorter ones, was a testament to the joy of exploration and the freedom of the open road.

Professional Milestones

On the professional front, I played a pivotal role in Twin Health's significant Series D fundraising of $50 million. Contributing to this milestone was not just a career highlight but a step toward revolutionizing healthcare of chronic diseases like Diabetes and Obesity through our health tech startup.

Family First

2023 was a special year for family achievements and gatherings. My son, Ahyan Zaman, took a bold step toward his dreams by applying for undergraduate programs in musical theatre. Meanwhile, my wife and daughter had a fantastic trip exploring the rich cultures of Tajikistan and Malaysia. The year began with a heartwarming visit from my parents to our home in the San Francisco Bay Area, filling our space with laughter and memories along with a great Hawaii trip. My brother Russel's first visit led us on a series of adventures across the USA, including a memorable trip to Florida to meet with cousins and New York to meet with my Uncle's family.

New Beginnings and Unexpected Turns

I embarked on a new creative venture, launching my YouTube channel Leader's Whiteboard, where I've delivered 17 episodes so far, aiming to inspire and connect with fellow industry leaders and engineers.

However, life had its twists when my Honda Accord was stolen. Remarkably, with the swift action of LoJack and the Fremont Police, it was recovered within 24 hours - a small saga that reminded me of the resilience and community spirit that we often take for granted.

Looking Ahead

As I step into 2024, I carry with me the rich tapestry of experiences from the past year. It's a mix of knowledge gained from books, the freedom tasted on open roads, the satisfaction of professional achievements, the joy of family time, and the excitement of new ventures.

Here's to 2024 - a year I hope will be filled with health, happiness, and success for all. May it be a year where we continue to grow, connect, and make a positive impact in our own lives and the lives of others. Let's make it another year to remember!

Wishing everyone a spectacular New Year!